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Having Usher Syndrome is a rollercoaster of emotions as your vision ebbs away.
Going blind is all consuming so much so we almost lose sight of the real importance of access to sound.
For me going blind took precedent!
I had retinitis pigmentosa and I had macular oedema. My consultant was so concerned about the macular oedema I was given drops, I was given tablets and ultimately I had a small procedure on one of my eyes. I was seen every 3 months for the first 4 years after my diagnosis. I had appointment after appointment, low vision clinic, VI Liaison Officer, this test, that test the list went on and on and it was absolutely exhausting.
To be honest I didn’t really understand it all back then, I had been used to appointments, audiology and speech therapy. Looking back my life had very much been about working with one adult or another on a one to one or in small groups because of my deafness.
However, as time progressed and I matured I began researching retinitis pigmentosa, macular oedema and Usher Syndrome - naturally I began to realise the severity of my condition and over the years I have felt a strange kind of grieving for my sight. I have been sad, I have cried, I have been angry, I have felt emotions I never knew existed, the result of which I found myself feeling very different, very isolated and on occasion very scared of the future.
Whilst we were all dealing with my progressive sight loss the one thing that enables me to be me is my deafness, as strange as it sounds my deafness had become the one thing that could, would and does enable me to live a pretty positive life, but only with assistive technology. There is some amazing assistive technology to enable deaf people.
I was born deaf, I never grieved for my loss of sound, I’d never had it to lose it! I had hearing aids from 18 months old, they could enhance and enabled me to access sound, thanks to those old analogue hearing aids I learnt to speak. It took a time but I was very well supported. The digital hearing aids I got then enabled me to really get going and along with a radio aid I did really well and was able to be as inclusive as I chose. There were difficulties but I had developed coping strategies because deafness and hearing aids were all I knew.
One of the first things I noticed just before my Usher Syndrome diagnosis was that I felt more deaf. I was really struggling to hear, what I hadn’t realised straight away was that my sight loss had denied me the ability to lipread, see facial expression and gestures, things that help enable deaf people to hear, yes, us deafies hear with our eyes. Lipreading is a huge part of understanding and enablement, up to 40% is heard with our eyes, I had lost that.
Looking back now losing the ability to hear with my eyes made my life so much more challenging. I don’t think people realise how tiring being deaf is, always having to concentrate on listening, having to use your sight to access information, its tough, however deafblind is beyond exhausting and sometimes totally overwhelming.
Having Usher Syndrome is truly challenging and painful for the people closest to us, often a feeling of helplessness because so far there is no cure, however there is some incredible assistive technology available. In my opinion we need access to it and we must embrace it to live as positive a life as possible.
Being deaf and going blind is gut wrenching but what many tend to do is concentrate so much more on the blind part of the condition when in actual fact and in my opinion we are missing out on the real importance of our ears.
Much more consideration should be given to our deafness and what hearing aids can do to enhance our lives.
For those following my story I have been fortunate to be wearing GN Hearing smart hearing aids for several years.
My Resound LiNXQuattro smart hearing aids have enabled me to literally fill in the gaps made from the loss of visual clues like lipreading, facial expression and gestures and more. These visual strategies are said to be 40% or more of how deaf people access sound!
Today I hear so efficiently that I no longer miss the visual clues. I can hear around doors, I can hear inside and outside, I have directional hearing, I hear tone and clarity. I have depth in my hearing, I am very fortunate.
Naturally my hearing aids have an app, Resound 3D, it enables me control over my hearing.
I can use my iPhone or applewatch to make adjustments: I can adjust volume settings, mute my hearing aids. Adjust speech focus, noise and wind noise levels. Adjust treble and base to suit. There is a tinnitus manager. There is a help locate lost or misplaced hearing aids. There is a remote audiology assist. The list goes on and on.
I can use my iPhone as a phone thanks to bluetooth connectivity and streaming, imagine life without access to a phone, I had that for 20 years!
Before smart hearing I would switch off my hearing aids whenever I could choosing silence to relax after a busy tiring day, today I relax listening to music, music I can hear, lyrics I can hear and I totally enjoy it, music is so therapeutic.
Without a doubt I’d love to be able to see again but its not happening anytime soon so I embrace as much enabling technology as I can to live a fulfilled life.
My smart hearing aids are the catalyst to my accessibility toolkit and should be made readily available to all hearing aid users living with Usher Syndrome.
Catching up with family and repacking for a trip up to the north of Scotland to visit family.
Anybody who has hearing aids knows it crucial to make sure you always , always, always carry a spare set of aids if possible, just in case! As I was packing I came across my old NHS pair of hearing aids, at the time (2019) I was assured they were the best on offer! They had served me ok in the past, they had to! I decided to check them out and change over new batteries. I decided to put them in to remind myself of the sounds I used to hear. The horrible sound of feedback, whistling and a rustle through the moulds. I started talking to Lyn my wife and realised just how different my voice sounded to myself. It sounded like I had a cold and was very dull. I found it difficult to wear them and quickly changed back to the clarity of my LiNX Quattro, there really is no going back, there really is no comparrison. I remember Molly saying there is no way she could go back to her old hearing aids, now I know exactly why. It’s only been a few months with my new smart hearing aids but today was a sharp reminder as to just how good the GN Hearing smart hearing aid technology really is. To deafblind people like myself having access to clarity of sound is essential.
Many thanks again to Molly of the Molly Watt trust and her dedicated family also to gn resound . Let’s get everybody on these. They do change lives.
On February 3rd 2020 at the age of 31 I finally entered into the hearing world properly for the first time. I’ve had years of NHS hearing aids and the best they could offer still wasn’t enough as my eyes deteriorated I needed to tweak my hearing aids constantly in an attempt to hear as well as others, but issues with feedback, echoing and blurring of words still persisted no matter what I did. So the best in the NHS for someone with DeafBlindness still didn’t suffice as I strived for independence with my guide dog.
So on this morning I felt nerves and skepticism as to what these Resound LiNX Quattro 9s from the renowned GN Hearing could really offer me. My daughter Lily (9) was excited for me to have them she was looking forward so seeing what technology they had In store. Jane & Molly Watt arrived at my home to take me to Correct Hearing in Carlton Nottingham to see audiologist Sarah Vokes.
On arrival I entered into the audiologist Sarah’s room and we began by getting to know each other, finding out what I could get from these hearing aids in my day to day life asking my hobbies and commitments so that later on Sarah could adjust the LiNX Quattro’s specifically to suit me. I needed a more up to date audiology test which I had there and then, this again was used to tailer the hearing aids to my ‘prescription’ to ensure I got the most out of them as they would adapt to my hearing loss.
Then Sarah showed me the new hearing aids, my mind was blown! They were the tiniest ones I’d ever had and the tube that went into my ear wasn’t a tube but a thin wire with a processor at the tip where the dome went round and fitted snug in the ear canal close to the ear drum! I’d never had this and didn’t even realise that technology was possible, this was amazing to me. Then Sarah talked me through the settings as she synced the aids with my audiogram and tailored the settings to my lifestyle.
Then came time to pop them in and switch them on! Immediately I heard conversations behind me and surround sound and I could accurately pinpoint where sounds where coming from, something invaluable to someone with tunnel vision. I felt like a baby hearing familiar sounds but in a totally new way, we went outside and tested traffic, I could hear cars approaching from a distance accurately, again something invaluable for me with my guide dog to keep us safe when walking the streets.
It was overwhelming, speech so clear I could hear my own voice and mis pronunciations even hear my own chewing for the first time, trust me that was a weird sensation for me as I’d never heard my own jaw before! These hearing aids were enabling me to hear for the first time IN my ear canal the natural cone shape of the ears were for the first time useful as I’d only ever had microphones behind my ear, these had a microphone IN my ear so yes at 31 years of age I was hearing like a normal person would for the first time!
After some fine tuning with Sarah ensuring I wasn’t too overwhelmed initially, she connected my Apple Phone and AppleWatch up to the Resound 3D app so I could change ‘channels’ and turn up or down the volume etc once I knew everything that was needed for now, we left with an appointment for a months time to check everything is going well.
When we left me Molly, Jane and our Guide Dogs Minnie & Bella went for a bite to eat to put my hearing aids to the test, I switched to ‘Restaurant’ mode and wow, yes I could hear the surrounding chatter but I could also tune in directly to Molly & Jane's voices, clearly, their speech sounded familiar but so different as I’d never heard such clarity in voices before. I could hear things were far away and what was close to me, for the first time since my sight declined I had depth perception thanks to these Line Quattro smart hearing aids. I was so happy!
Over the last few weeks since my switch on, I’ve had my follow up appointment which has turned me up to 100% of my hearing prescription, we did this in stages to allow my brain to adjust to the new sounds. The past few weeks have been interesting, I’ve been playing with the app, so I’ve set the GPS for when I take my daughter to school my hearing aids automatically switch to outdoor mode with speech clarity and noise reduction on low so this enables me to hear all around me knowing if children in the playground are close or far away and most importantly I can pinpoint my own daughters voice amongst the playground chaos.
I've done similar for when I attend tennis lessons or go on dog walks, the connectivity of these hearing aids is something I’ve never had but now I do I’m finding it so useful in daily life. Im not constantly walking around adjusting the volume like I used to, I’m now just turning speech clarity on or the treble up or just using a preset setting like ‘Outdoors’ or ‘Restaurant’.
Since becoming adjusted to the Linx Quattro’s I’ve heard bird song, drones, the Clock Ticking even my own dog makes noise when she yawns, I’ve never heard them before. I’ve had to remove the clock from my wall as I’d never realised how loud the ticking is! I've heard the low sounds of London Tubes under my feet while at an appointment at Moorfields eye hospital, I knew they were there before but I’d never actually heard them before.
Hearing bird song, struck something emotional in me, my mother passed away 2 years ago, she used to love hearing, watching and feeding the garden birds something I struggled to indulge with but my daughter did wholeheartedly and it became a real grandmother & granddaughter connection for them both. So for me to now hear them sing as spring approaches is amazing, and it doesn’t have to be quiet for me to hear them either, I can hear them when the trees are rustling and children and playing near by, these hearing aids pick up that higher tone of bird song I couldn’t hear before. A precious gift to me.
I could go on, for example the way I hear music now is totally different. But for now I’ll leave it on that note until my next blog. In the mean time I’d just like to say a personal emotional heartfelt thank you to the Molly Watt Trust and GN Resound for enabling me to be Case Study 2 along with Sarah at Correct Hearing, you really have no idea what you have given me, words cannot describe the difference this has made to my life. What you have given me and my family is truly priceless, Thank you!